" Fear not for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes I will help you yes I will hold you up and retain you with my right hand of righteousness and justice." Isaiah 41:10Have you ever felt so conflicted that even the right answer didn't seem like it was going to bring a resolve to the conflict without hurting someone or yourself? Have you ever felt like no matter what you chose it wouldn't make everyone happy? Have you ever felt like you just needed to be held and just let the tears fall?
The truth is it hard to attempt to please everyone else and yourself at the same time. In fact, I am beginning to realize that it is almost impossible and very exhausting to put everyone else and their opinions/desires above your own desires and thoughts. Not to say that loving others before oneself is wrong in fact the bible says in Phillipians 2:4 " Let each of you esteem and look upon and be concerned for not (merely) his own interest but also for each for the interests of others. I was looking at this passage this morning and the keyword merely stuck out to me. It says it is important to look after oneself but it important to love others and not be selfish. Question: How do we love ourselves while maintaining a balanced love relationship with others? I think that sometimes other people's desires conflict with our own. What this creates is an impass. The feeling that no matter what we want it is not going to please everyone and then we must choose whether or not we are willing to sacrifice to satisfy the other.
I believe everyone at one point must decide whether or not they will be radical and live their life according to what God wants. The line is drawn in the sand. Will you choose to follow the father's call, trust a father's heart and be willing to say no to other people in order to follow God's will for you own life? Are you willing to be reassured only by the Heavenly Father and not by others? Are you willing to love others while consistently trusting God and following his direction?
These are questions that I am asking myself consistently. Through this confliction that I am enduring I rest assured that my heavenly father gives me rest but he will also lead me out of the shadows and bring me clarity. He will reveal to me the answer. So all I can do is just wait upon him. To sit on his lap and let the heavenly father love me and whisper over me.
This is beautiful and I have replayed it over and over. Our heavenly father speaks.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n9ZaZE0B8MY
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